i will not eat

i i i i’m in it i i i’m i i inside i i i is i’ll i i’m i ill i

will will will want words will will will with waves wake will wrangle with will well wish where wonderful what witch who with what worst worst worst which

not not not not nothing not not no-one never nimble not never nothing no now no-one

eat eat eat eat everything eruption eat eat exchange enough even

your you you you your your your you you’ll your you you your your your you you your you you your you you you you you

food from face feed forkful feed force fingers flying fed forsake fault fucking fucking feed

 

[selected words from my journal 5th Dec 2016
as part of the Against English: Dialects, Distortions and New Vocabularies
Poetry School course]

woman and nature

Women which works which without whole weights which was without within which which when

of oysters other only organisms opposite optics of of

might many make matter machine matter mechanical may material machine may motion moving maker mechanics microcosm moment moment

and are are acts actions according and are a as and always action and and angles argued and a and as a a animals all all and at

not named.

 

Not naming never new no nothingness not now

a and air and all absolutely are angle always and actual again a a and and act and act and act a and are as asks an admit and are afraid are and and and and as

that the the table the this to this to though think there twice the this teacher tells the the the to the the the to to the the the the the take textures twigs the the to the this the they them

us unknown unknown

ride rely rides rule roughing respond rolls rope

each earth everything exciting expression every edges every each ever events elements enter.

 

[the letters: w.o.m.a.n. and n.a.t.u.r.e. taken from page 20 and page 193 of Woman and Nature by Susan Griffin, 1978]

oxlip (autocorrect of = oulipo)

started the poetry school course ‘against english: dialects, distortions and new vocabularies’ today with an experiment:

poem:

  1. the book “woman and nature” by susan griffin: page 20. take out all the words beginning with: woman.  and make the first stanza out of these words.
  2. “woman and nature” by susan griffin. page 193. take out all the words beginning with nature. and make the second stanza out of these words.

this book is very close to my heart at the moment, as i continue my journey into feminism and one that has changed the way i think about the world (along with ‘wild: an elemental journey’ by jay griffiths and ‘the beauty myth’ by naomi wolf) and it is interesting that even though you can write in a very restricted way, it is possible that something profound can come out of it.

tooth

this is no good
it’s been hurt we should pull it knock
out the crown~ expose
the velvet entryway
enter at first with possible violence
the enjambment
might be a shock

witness the drill silence
the rotting root~

it goes on and on

the corrosive hole
rimmed with titanium
with whispers
someone needs saving
fill with disparate
insidious
flavours

you say
now it’s time you stood on your own two feet

germaine

some things i nodded to
some things made me sorrowfully shake my head
but mostly i believe i scraped through
relatively unscathed

my best friend in school; we would sit on each others’ knees waiting for assembly
some boy once called us dykes but i didn’t know
what that would mean, until much later

i knew that i could not be a mother at 20
unlike my mother who [i’m assuming in 1959]

had no choice.

i think that’s when things may have started to go wrong for her
that fucking Freud & his devotees
the problem lies not with women but society

when i realised what the problem was i felt better
relieved; i felt
that all the tree climbing & wearing black t-shirts
& square boots
all the scribbling in secret books
& the way i used sex to land my first real job

haha the joke could have been on me
but it was not.

written whilst reading ‘The Female Eunuch’.